At one point or another, most Christians have felt this way. We are spiritually full of joy and deeply passionate in pursuing God. But then something happens that makes us feel spiritually dry and in a desert alone. Sometimes nothing even happened and we begin to feel empty inside. Even when we do Godly things, like serving, going to church, praying, fellowship, etc.
I’ll confess too. I’ve felt this way numerous times. I’ve asked God through the passage, “Why?” “How come even though I’m being faithful, I feel so empty and unfulfilled within?”
There’s a lot of reasons why we go through dry seasons in our journey with Christ. Don’t think for one moment that Jesus has abandoned you, because He is by Your side right now. In my case, it was to learn patience and to grow. The times where I felt like God wasn’t listening, strengthened the weight of my faith in Christ. When I couldn’t hear God’s voice like I used to, it wasn’t because God was gone, but because of the volume adjustment in my life. Other times it was because God was speaking to me through the silence, but I had not realized it.
Unknowingly, I allowed the sounds of the world to speak over the voice of God. Jesus is not going to force us to love Him. He wants us to give it up by our freewill. Sometimes circumstance come that are allowed by God. He helps us through the situations. But maybe, sometimes, helping us is remaining in silence.
God knows our hearts very well. Even better than our family or best friend or ourselves! He knows what it takes for us to break or to be filled. He knows the degree that it requires for our hardened hearts to melt to the perfect temperature to enlighten us to live for His glory. He knows our ways and the way that it should be. He is good and He calls us to trust Him. It’s hard because the whole world tells us to do otherwise. It’s hard to surrender what we see and follow with our eyes closed. We’re all broken people and have been hurt in our life stories. We’re been lied to and mistreated. It makes trusting God tough. But it makes trusting God powerful and desirable and worth it.
Through our trust and our persistence, God is healing our broken pieces. God is more than a feeling and He is more than just a healer that fulfills our needs. He reigns because He deserves to be praised and to be worshiped. And we are called to worship Him. Because we are creation, we have that lingering desire to go after Him even when it seems strange to worldly standards.
Don’t give up just because God doesn’t seem to be near. He hears each prayer and He is working all things for His good and those who love Him. It’s scary to not have an assurance or the comfort of knowing that someone is by our side, willing to listen to our thoughts and troubles and other words. But because the risk is high, God can use it to magnify His greatness. a breakthrough can come right now or many years from now. God loves you and adores the dedication that you put in to bring Him glory. He will reward you one day. That one day isn’t as far away as we think. It might be cold right now and really blurry, but it won’t be confusing forever. Keep pursuing God and running to Him because He listens intently. The light is going to breakthrough because God always wins.
They ask me how I can relate to my God, how I see my God, why I believe in my God. And I told them. I see him in the stars, I see him in the snow. I see him in a mother’s hug and a husband’s kiss. I feel him in the sunshine on my skin and the rumble of thunder. I feel his warmth in the smile of a stranger. I feel his freedom through laughter and I feel him picking me up when I fall through the hug of a friend. I believe in my God because He is everything; he’s not just some old man with a beard sitting on a throne miles away. He is right here. He is in me, around me, and with me. But the thing is, we have to look and listen for him. Otherwise, we might miss all he is.(via truerunner)
For some of us, books are as important as almost anything else on earth. What a miracle it is that out of these small, flat, rigid squares of paper unfolds world after world after world, worlds that sing to you, comfort and quiet or excite you. Books help us understand who we are and how we are to behave. They show us what community and friendship mean; they show us how to live and die.Anne Lamott, Bird By Bird (via bookmania)
There are three things I want you to learn how to say.
“I love you”
and don’t just say it as an empty phrase,
say it with feeling,
say it to every person who comes to mind when you think of those three little words.
I know it’s scary,
I know it’s difficult,
but open yourself up
and shout it.
don’t say it under your breath,
when you love someone,
whether platonically or romantically,
it deserves to be shouted from every rooftop.
There will be some people in your life
that come in and just wreck everything,
they mess up your plans,
they hurt you,
and make you feel less than what you are,
so please learn how to say goodbye to them.
But I also want you to learn how to say goodbye
to even the people you want to stay.
not everyone stays,
and saying goodbye is like setting someone free,
and it won’t always come easy,
and it won’t always come without heartbreak,
but not everyone stays,
and it will do you a world of good to learn how to tell them
“I am worth it.”
there will be waves of sorrow in your life,
and you will feel as if you were the sand that the tide carries away,
you will feel as if it carries away your worth
it will feel like you are the left over rubble of a building
that had been burned down,
and you will feel less,
but please learn to say these words.
say them in the mirror when you have just woken up,
say them when your lover turns their back on you,
say them when you are opening up the refrigerator
and please, believe them.
You are more than sand that can just be washed away,
and you are more than just a few pieces of broken cement,
you are worth it.
There comes a feeling of liberation after running for a very long time. First, your legs pound on the ground beneath you, you search for air to power your strides, you sweat, and look up at the sky. But suddenly, your lungs open up and fill with the fresh air around you, your legs seem to supply you with with endless strides, your vision is blurred yet focused on the things in front of you, and most importantly your mind is clear.
You are now flying. When you run, you allow yourself to submit your thoughts to your surroundings unconditionally. Stop thinking and let go. You trust your legs to carry you far, far away from your problems and allow you to enter a world of peace —your world of peace. When you run, you allow yourself to fall in love. You fall in love with the road, the journey, your powerful strides. And most importantly, you fall in love with yourself.